finally off of work. god damn. it felt like it would last forever...
do i really have to do the same thing now for years? like holy shit this is miserable.
it's just the same thing again and again, and i'm earning nothing. god, what am i supposed to do? this stupid fucking job is just so dehumanizing. being screamed at all day, being monitored for performance at every moment, being paid only enough to just barely afford a few monthly expenses. my entire body feels like it's breaking moment by moment...
not only that, but i also haven't talked to some of my friends in so long. i'm so worried that some of them just decided to leave me. i...fuck i should check. i should apologize to them for not responding in so long. they'll probably understand, but...what if they don't?
at least mia seems to be understanding...phew. thank god. i hope my other friends do as well...
...oh right, her...
what even happened since we stopped talking? we stopped talking for about a year and a half ago, but she didn't even say anything for more than that...fuck. i don't even know why.
oh well, i think i'll just talk to some of my other friends, but...god i'm still thinking about what happened. did we just fall out of favor? ...i guess...but...