"are you going to get on the boat?"
i haven't been on a boat in a while. i'm scared. the river looks serene though...
"...lavender?"
"oh...right. i'll get on."
i got on the boat after i said that.
i've been alone for quite some time. a year, to be exact. i was working during that year at a job. i hate it, i want to quit. atleast my friend asked me if i wanted to ride a boat with her. i wonder how she found this place, though. it's so far away from our homes, and it feels like it isn't real...
the scenery is so picturesque. different colored flowers, a slow and steady river, lushous grass, the bright sun, and every kind of tree imaginable.
it reminds me of someone. someone i hold dear to my heart. i wish she was here more often.
i should probably ask her how she found this.
"hey. mia."
"hm?" she asked while rowing very slowly.
"how did you find this place?"
"there was a friend of mine that told me about it a few months ago. it seemed like a good place...so glad i found it a few weeks ago."
"i mean...yea...it truly is amazing. i haven't seen anything like this. it's so relaxing...i could be here forever..."
"i get that...i know how much you hate that job you're working in. it's probably so much better to be here, but i guess we can't be."
mia sighed right after. i mean it's true, but fuck...i just wish i could stop working in that warehouse.
"yeah mia...it really sucks that i can't, but i guess i have to live somehow. speaking of which..."
we are currently moving slowly, and more and more things appear as the stream slowly takes us around while mia rows slowly. falling petals, lovely hills...
"yea?"
"about that friend...we have a lot of friends in common, right? are they someone i know?"
"ah...yeah...i think you know her as well. her name is *******, have you talked to her recently?"
"...hm. i haven't, actually..."
oh. right...her...i...
"she misses you a lot, especially for the past year or so. i get that you've been unable to talk a lot recently but..."
"...she does? i thought she forgot about me...especially after...wait..."
i...i should know her name.
i don't know why i don't. what even happened...what was i gonna mention?
"...lavender? what's wrong?"
...ah. yea...fuck. god damnit.
the clouds are appearing often...the sky is getting darker. the waters are getting rougher. i can feel the boat rocking. i look forward, and the trees are wilting. nearby, i see a strange, red flower.
i see the reminder of my fuck ups.