these are not really fleshed out. i just thought they were cool.
you are going through my head. you know when someone wanted to know what goes through my head at any moment? here.
I FUCKED UP MY INDEX UHHHHHHH OOPS I THINK WE'RE FINE NOW (9:25pm)
god i love "zato: i love the world and everything in it" so much
gillian rose's "mourning becomes the law" is really good but i've been thinking about the phrase "the representation of fascism and the fascism of representation" lately. it's a strange phrase, pointing to how the ways we represent fascism is an important task because of the consequence of depicting it wrongly: reinforcing it. this isn't done by romanticization usually, but rather depicting the regime as something of pure evil and indescribable and thus being unable to say anything about it. all we are meant to do is to pray and be pious...holocaust piety. this kind of thing has been getting at me recently.
one of the more interesting provocations that i've seen in luce irigaray's marine lover is that femininity is a tool of the patriarchy and i feel like. i get what she means in that femininity is the "replica of the woman" but it kinda falls apart now i think today mainly cause gender/sex are seen as separate things. it'd be more accurate now to say that the Female (that is, the Woman as a fixed form that is opposed to the Male, in contrast to actual women. in short, the "cis (the white and straight and able-bodied and bourgeois and other things are implied too) woman." this phrasing is horrible, i will just say the Fixed Woman from now on) is the tool of the patriarchy...i think. i think it gets closer to what the point is imo. cause it's like for her it seems, women (in the sense of the actual woman, who is not inherently anything) tend to always be elsewhere even when they mimic whatever is proposed/imposed on them. but the Fixed Woman is something that is part of the patriarchy (using this term generically, the question of what the patriarchy may be is more complicated) because it is part of the structure that upholds the Family and specifically its nuclear version. this is needed because then the Fixed Woman can be reduced as only part of the heterosexual reproductive unit of the family that seeks to maintain bullshit like "bloodlines" and more generally property which is put upon the child (and also the worker) as both a measuring stick and a baton so that they (though more often, he) will become the person who inherits private property. so what we have done is that the sea of women is frozen over with the ice of the Fixed Woman because of how these things like cisheteropatriarchy and white supremacy and capitalism and stuff desire death. they desire their own deaths, sure, but especially those who fall out of the Fixed Woman (racialized, trans, queer, disabled, indigenous, etc.). even if this all comes to ruin, it'll be fine because everything else will be destroyed first. there are also some colonial aspects to the Fixed Woman and the family but frankly i am not sure how they map out, so i'll leave it at that. (6:35pm)
edit (6:44pm): buh...but idk much psychoanalysis so...
been thinking about mai amai from 'my devilishly sweet girlfriend' lately. can't be put under a seduction spell but also has the purest distillation of lesbian yearning and erotic desire. there are no secrets to be revealed, no pretense of depth even. one could even say that nothing is happening...and well, you'd be right. however, why need spells when she is always looking outward, being part of the tasting. being tasted and tasting. why do you need to veil yourself when you're already in the water?
i've been getting sleepier lately, dunno what to do... (9:58am)