these are not really fleshed out. i just thought they were cool.
you are going through my head. you know when someone wanted to know what goes through my head at any moment? here.
i've started calling gender a machine more often and oh my god things started making sense too. (11:25pm)
been feeling miserable lately for 2 days (2:55pm)
too much time constraints ;; especially on what i want to do and how they generally take a very long time. (1:36pm)
part one of assignment hell done... (1:51pm)
on an unrelated note, signal strength was really good. (1:57pm)
i read a yuri called philosophia a few days ago. it's a beautiful story about 2 women who rejected love in 2 different ways: one in the way where she thinks love is something only dumb people have, and one who thinks she's undeserving of love for a variety of reasons. it's a piece of work that isn't afraid to tackle what love is and what it does to people. what is it like when you feel love? what is it even? i'm not sure myself, but...i sometimes think about the ways im influenced by the people i like and hold dearly in my heart too. i think about the flowers and i see my collaborator. i want to see her and the world and the flowers flourish. to do that, i hope i could too.
yuri about department stores. (9:57pm)
god i forgot to do a lot of stuff here awawawa...i'll probably do some stuff with this site and what not...i've just not been feeling well lately. (11:37pm)
i wish i wasn't so bogged down all the time because i keep looping back to worse mental places. for some reason i have become more prone to just being hit with something mentally out of nowhere and being left exhausted and unable to do anything. like this is just becoming annoying at this point. (1:13pm)
i've been thinking about "post-irony," a concept in which you return to sincerity through irony, lately. i think this idea has been quite cool to think about, especially when we express desire in the irony-riddled hellscape we're in at this point. maybe it's worth delving into a little more. (4:48pm)
trying to be a student...damnit. (11:24am)
been performing more since i started playing yume nikki again. this has been getting fun i'm gonna be honest... (1:12am)
performance yuri
yuri about exhaustion. two girls who have been broken and exhausted because of how they have been treated in their respective communities somehow meet each other as they try to find the small glimpses of space to heal bit by bit.
on a tangentially related note, it sucks that i have to deal with emotional detachment and the layers of irony in the few spaces i'm still in. it just...sucks. i somewhat know how we got here, but...god, i don't know. (3:15pm)
i might be working on some stuff with some of my friends. i really hope this goes well when summer comes cause god damn. i'm also getting into the writing mood at last so...hooray!
yuri involving a secret writing group in a university that no one but the people in the group know about. (5:10pm)
happy new yuri! i hope that things are okay or atleast not horrible. i love you all and thank you for probably the most impactful year of my life. (´▽`ʃ♡ƪ) (2:38am)